more thoughts

when is the risk worth it?
when is it worth the risk?
I am positive it isn't now.

I lay down at night, close my eyes
and BOOM my mind gets raped.

thoughts on top of thoughts,
it's fucking too much

I was up til 5:30am, thinking

did I resolve anything?
nope.

would I like to share what I was thinking about?
not really.

they're coming to get me.
the aliens that I've buried deep within the darkest corners of my mind, they are emerging, with vengeance in hand, and destruction at heart.
they drag up my emotions, mix them with crazy things, and then laugh.
laugh so hard, so eerily. I can almost hear the laughter in the silent darkness that is my room. I put the blanket over my head, as if that would help...
I'm not crazy, I promise.