older shit

My migraine just seems to get worse by the second.
The throbbing goes along with "Now You're Gone" by Basshunter
it's quite enjoyable
well, about as enjoyable as a migraine gets.
I feel empty inside.
her words seem to follow me in my sleep, and when they're not following, they're keeping me up.
"Elisa ENJOY the journey of life, every bend is a new path, a new joy to discover, you'll find every moment has a divine PURPOSE, LIVE LIFE!"
yeah, sure. well, this journey is too hard to go at alone
I wish I had someone, or something to help me in this gay journey.
but, all I have is my princess, Lillie. she's the only one who doesnt have a problem of her own. she seems to listen so well too. She just plops down and purrs, as if her mission in life was to listen.
I don't want school to start. I don't wanna face that stupid drama again.
People really piss me off, the worse part is, no has done anything to actually anger me. Its like, seeing someone breathing, and being happy makes me clench my jaw. I'm not sad or anything, I just get angry. The thing that angers me the most is that people actually pretend to care. Its like, okay, you are so transparent. Its so obvious you don't care. Just leave me alone.
I honestly just want to go to Canada and escape this. I honestly want to be a lawyer and everything, but if i have to go through this to get there, I'm starting to wonder if its worth it. High school is the pure insanity. How so many people can be so judging is beyond me. Its like a fucking grand jury of KKK members, and I'm the black person on trial.
And the worst part is, I just want him. I don't know who he is yet. I just know I want him.