[23 Aug 2008 | Saturday] 09:22
 | another crazy AM suhp? :) dawg, i feel crazy discontent. idk. cant wait for school :O not really but i wanna meet new people, y'know? well, im not even tired, but sleep is my best bet. life is so flipflopped these days its like, left is right, right is up i think im going to write poems again yeah, i think i will i am also quite indecisive its like, do i want to breath? and i cant make up my mind i never know if what i feel is real like my emotions are tricking me its really odd i feel off. like, im balancing on my leg, and my bad leg at that and its fucking pissing me off that my "i"s are lowercased but im far too lazy to fix 'em all. my thoughts are fucked man. not like bad, but not straight but not like, homo thoughts just not clear its like my brain needs some windex, y'know? maybe meeting new people will be like, my windex or maybe writing poems again.... kay, well i guess i should go to sleep if i can. idk there isnt anything on my mind, but i still manage to not sleep i wish i was 4 again i could play with my toys, and play with billy and walk to the park in new york city and live i havent felt the simple joy of almost touching the big tree with my little feet in awhile. i wonder if that park is still there, with the same swingset that made my afternoon it was my spot of sincere serenity, my north star in my busy night sky i just never knew haa. to be four again...... |
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