Waiting for my plot twist...

If I could, I would definitely pick up my life and hold it upside-down until all the snow landed on the ceiling of my globe... then, after each and every fleck has fallen, I would set it back down. Not necessarily shaking things up as much as just making it fall different. This way I don't run into the same fake flake of snow in the same spot everyday. I need something to happen. I need a purpose again, and I really don't want it to be a boy of some sort. I am sick and tired of my purpose being dependent on getting someone to like me, or figuring out if I like someone back. Fuck that. If there is going to be a boy, it damn well better be on my terms this time. I want a new person, too. This valley is a recycling bin of people. Haven't seen a new person that someone hasn't seen before, or dated, or new someone who's mother works with their dad... I'm done with some how knowing someone before even meeting them. Just today, I was talking to a man and it turns out, I went to middle school and high school with his son. His son was the first person I thought I liked...Of course I didn't tell him this, but still. I met this man at my dad's work! I really miss having my phone around too. But, seriously, I know the budget and calendar up until January... I need something new, something needs to be brought in new. I miss my talent, I don't honestly think I ever had any... Foolish choice, I made