a bit of a babe, also. this is a bit of a diary rant

You know, I honestly do not understand how people can sit there and not have conversations.
I truly love meeting new people, making people laugh, being made laugh, and then also, getting asked for help/advice. Not that I know the answer, but it's just nice that for some reason people tend to ask me for help a lot. I mean, I think I know everything, but I didn't know that everyone else thought so too ;)
haha, I kid, of course.

I got some interesting compliments, and insults today.

I also got mad, really mad. For no reason.
Just got infuriated, and needed to just start over

I need to start over. I need to get out of here. I need to meet someone new.
I need a refreshing personality
maybe someone who isn't too heavy. Yeah, I hope that's what I get.
Something light and airy. Something fun. I want to smile, it's spring. I want to just laugh, and have a nice day.

I think if you let yourself believe you are happy, the happiness follows shortly after.

I think people rely on their sadness, bitchiness, bitterness, pessimism, and just flat out rudeness. Being sad is what they're good at. They are used to it. They are comfortable with it.

I was sad, for February, and I can't believe I made it out alive. I really honestly cannot do sadness. I mean, if you make me cry, I'll cry. But I hate being stuck in a routine, a tunnel that has no end.
So, I woke up, and let the sunshine get to me.
I smile now, I actually smile!

Being that I spent a lot of my childhood actually depressed, I do understand that sometimes you can't do it. You really are sad, and stuck that way. My therapist really helped me out, man. Because, I never like to be sad anymore. Before I got some sort of sick pleasure in my own sadness.
I even got involved with people who could control my happiness
People I knew had the ability to make me go from happy to sad in a second or less.
But, now, this has to change

I need to stand up for my self, right?

Thanks for listening to me.
ah.
I really should be doing my homework. I have english, stats, and french, ahah :3