rage!

things that are freaking me out right now:
Starting school
money, or, lack of rather.
that lengthy list of things I need for school
unfinished summer assignments
AP French...
school itself
college. fucking college.
D:<
how is it that I knew where I wanted to go and everything, but now I have no clue.
school, again. I was stoked, and now I am not
I can't draw, or do anything good art-wise
I lost any talent I had.

.....friday I am not doing anything but homework, and saturday I am going to the art museum for hw.
sunday, sunday I shall finish up, and then kill myself.


honestly I had no clue I'd make it this far in life
I thought I was going to die before college, in fact I was sort of relying on it.
Alas, I lived, now I have to deal with this.
I'm on the verge of tears here.