Sunday...

It haunts us all..

fuck, as much fun as i had last night, it still continues to haunt me

i think i fucked up in some choices that id really like to change

my mind is so fucked up.

i don't know what to do

and i cant even talk to like, anyone about it.

it haunts me like a sunday evening....


IRRELEVANTLY
fuck, i dont care about boys anymore haha
i just wanna use them for a good time

...uh idk though

i really want a relationship
and i dont mean like a flowers or anniversary worshiping one either

i want a best friend, that i can trust my soul with, and also parts of my soul i wouldnt trust girls with.
idk, i want a boy that wants me to be his best friend, and thats all that i think a successful relationship takes.

but then again, i've never had one...
..let alone any relationship

this is pissing me off

...what exactly?
LIFE.

boys = none.
girls = drama.
school = slow
dad = work
mom = ohio
billy = too cool for me
home = empty


im just going on an emo rant,
haha ;p

not like anyone is going to read this....


HOMECOMING PICTURE





anyway!
so, i have this theory that pretty girls dont creep, they just admire...

and, im sorta, "admiring" a few boys
one has a girl friend
the other, well he doesnt know i exist
WELL there was this one time that he came over to talk to Billy, and he looked at me
heh <3_<3 but, he isnt billys age i think hes like my age or younger




god, im so pathetic, idk whats wrong with me